I am an Alien

So this is the thing... I'm a Christian, and although I was raised in a Christian home, I became one on my own free will. God and Jesus have never been a hard thing for me to buy into. Honestly, they are the only reason I have gotten through some of the darkest times of my life; and they are the only things that makes sense in this world that makes none at all. With that said, I have always had a hard time with religion, and frankly, most Christians.

Where's the honesty? This world is one big, fat, depressing place. And I feel like I'm an Alien here, trying to live in a place that I hate and isn't my home. I just can't bring myself to buy into it all - follow all these steps and rules and your life will be perfect, as long as you never cuss again. Look, I'm not knocking people who follow all the rules, I'm just saying - am I the only one who thinks people suck at love and care more about what age you are when you get married, than actually waiting to get married to the right person, for the right reasons? Am I the only one who cringes when some people make it sound like they found Jesus and now they will never have another bad day for the rest of their life? And singling out specific sins and making it seem like the fastest way to hell? Life is hard enough without all the added pressure of people trying to form you into what everyone else is, or has, when really they don't even know, or want, it themselves.

When did believing in God become a lifestyle instead of a personal relationship that is unique to each person? Why do I beat myself up because my life hasn't turned out like my other Christian friends? When did being a individual become wrong? Where my other Aliens at?

K-Fresh aka Donnie Darko
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