This is the thing... There are good days, there are bad days, and then there are the game changer days. Today was a game changer day. I will forever be changed because of this day and I want to write about it.
I've had a few game changer days in my life, so I know when it happens. Sometimes it's huge events and sometimes it's just some words you needed to hear at that exact moment. The first was when I became a believer in Jesus, which changed everything about who I am - my purpose, my attitude, love, hope and just an overall sense of relief.
The second was my step-dad Chuck dying. I loved the way he loved. If I could love half as good as him that would be an accomplishment. He was on his death bed, knowing it, in pain, tubes coming out of everywhere, never complained, just wanted us to know how much he loved us. He couldn't speak so he wrote in a notebook to my Mom that whole week in the hospital how much he loved her. After that, I knew there was no way I could ever marry a man until he loved me like Chuck loved my Mom. And if I die before that happens - so be it. You can't witness that and ever settle for anything less.
The third was after a breakup with a boyfriend of five years. I was driving and flipping through the radio stations. I stopped on some talk radio station, and right at that moment the lady (I have no clue who she was) said "people who always try and save people, really need to save themselves." And right then I decided to save myself.
The fourth, and the one that happened today, was the five-hour, unexpected, conversation I had with my Mom this morning. A lot of personal things were said, that needed to be said, and needed to come from my Mom. I literally could feel years of pain in my soul being healed at that very moment. I won't go into everything, but one specific thing she said that really hit me hard was,"God made nothing about you to be invisible." Because of that, I am forever changed by the way I view myself and the specific qualities God chose just for me.
Forever Changed,
K-Fresh
2 comments:
a. freakin. men.
your mom is right. i'm so glad you had this moment in your life. i can't wait to see what changes this brings to your life.
Your mom is a wise woman. It's wonderful that you can have talks like this with her.
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